Sitting in my house with some cold chinese food.

I'm sitting here on my parent's couch that is a good 5 years older than me and I am slowly realizing how much I have on my plate (literally and figuratively). I've been steadily working since I was 18 years old with the exception of a 3 month hiatus between Hot Dog and my current job. Not only have I been working since I was 18, I have been going to school full time, non-stop... this was my first summer without summer school since the 8th grade.

In this "down time" I have decided to take on coordinating and running a blood drive. my friend is helping me out but I feel as if the majority of the responsibility falls on my shoulders- this is most likely because I am a control freak. I thought it would be easy-peasy, but I was wrong. Getting people to donate their blood is TOUGH, over 2000 people have been invited to the event on facebook and only 38 are "attending"; and I only have 21 people signed up on e-donor. Not only have I advertised on facebook, but I also listed it on craig's list and posted over 100 posters around the city in the local businesses. People don't want to donate because they're often scared, but if you think about it, one little needle prick is nothing when compared to someone going through chemotherapy, suffering from an illness, or having an operation.

I just hope that people realize that one day they will probably need a blood transfusion and that the blood they are receiving will have come from someone who donated an hour of their time to save their life.

/end rant.

#53 Pretty Baby- Vanessa Carlton

And I know things can't last forever
But there are lessons that you'll never learn
Oh just the scent of you it makes me hurt
So how's it you that makes me better...


when did i fall out of lust with you?

Why do people feel the need to victimize themselves?
Do they even realize they're doing it?

either way, it's obnoxious.

I've been told I am hard to figure out/ hard to read... I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I guess I'd rather be hard to figure out than easily understood... having to work for things is always more rewarding.

Accessibility takes away the mystery.

wind.

you're like the wind.
you blow into my life...
and the next second, you're gone.
this time i've nailed my shoes to the ground;
you can't knock me off my feet anymore.

this is progress.
it has taken 2 years to achieve it.
i'm not going to allow myself to be blown away... i love myself too much.